Pulling my hair out.

Zachary Caine was born on Saturday, February 25, 2012 at 2:41 AM weighing in at 9lbs 3oz and 21 inches long. From the time active labor began until he was born, 5 hours. That's all. I did end up giving in and asking for an epidural. I got it. But it didn't begin to work until about 20 minutes after he was born. The only part of my body that was numb for his birth were my feet HAHA. It was a wonderful experience, being able to know exactly when to push and how much harder I needed to. Feeling every bit of it, sure it hurt, but it showed me that I could do it without the epidural. IF I decide I want more children.

It's been pretty crazy since he was born. I know, it's only been a bit over a week, but it's been a crazy time. My 2 year old (Kaiden) is adjusting real well. He wants so badly to play with his baby brother. When I leave Kaiden with mamaw to go pick daddy up from work and take baby Zachary with me, he yells at me and tells me I can't take the baby with me. When we all three get home, he's extremely excited!! He doesn't notice me much (lol) but he gets very jumpy and starts yelling "BEEBEE! DADA!!!" It makes me so happy. 

I love my family full of boys. So very much. More than I ever thought I would. And I'm adjusting quite well considering Kaiden is in the stage where everything "No" is absolutely "yes!". Zach is a wonderful baby. Only crying when I change his diaper or he is hungry. I'm not used to that. I'm still not used to the fact that I have a 2 year old. I have kids. I'm a mother. Wow.

I can't wait to see what the future brings for us. For MY family. My guys. Will the boys be football players? Will they want to be in dance? How smart will they be in school? What will they want to be when they grow up? Will they make me a grandma? Who will they marry? Where will they go in life? Will they be proud of the mommy they had as children? There are so many questions I can't wait to learn the answers to, but so scared that those answers will come too fast. I don't want them to grow up, but I can't wait until they do. So goes the life of a mother.

TTFN

Dani