That's how long I have until I'm going to be induced for baby boy number 2, Zachary Caine! Today, I am 40 weeks and 5 days pregnant. The little booger doesn't want to come out, so he's getting his eviction notice.
When the doctor set my induction date on Monday, I was utterly terrified. Sure, I already have one kid, I know how it can be with a newborn. It's just different this time! I'm not doing it alone. I have a HUGE support system of not only long distance friends, internet friends, and fans on my facebook pages, but I have people in my house that are here for me, to help me, to guide me, to keep me sane. Most importantly, I have my boyfriend, Chris. Who honestly, is such an amazing soul. He just doesn't know that.
My first son's father was a.... well... a joke of a man. He could do all manly things. Fix cars, chop down trees, shoot a rifle, skin a deer, and cheat on his pregnant woman. We split up when I was 7 months pregnant. He hasn't seen Kaiden in over 2 years. Great father, huh? We can't win them all. It's all okay, though. Chris has stepped up in an amazing way to be there for Kaiden. He IS Kaiden's daddy. And now we get to share another child. It's a beautiful and amazing feeling. Especially knowing that I get to share all of the sticky black poopy diapers and spit up with my other half this time around.
I got over my nerves. I'm very excited now. Very anxious. So ready to meet this little tiny soul that has been growing inside of me for 9 months now. I've felt him growing and changing. I've helped keep him warm. And even though he isn't out yet to cry and be upset, I have even soothed him. He makes my back, hips, and knees hurt. My feet swell uncontrollably. I can't eat very many foods without feeling like I'm filled with stomach acid to the brim. But this tiny little human is mine. I made him. I helped him form.
"Of all the rights of women, the greatest is to be a mother."
Dani
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